I am called to shine light on injustice. I am called to tell my story.
The purpose of this blog was simple, idealistic, and naïve, because I am simple, idealistic, and naïve. It is changing, because I am changing. I never realized how therapeutic writing is until now. I’m not called to change the views of six men in Lenexa. I’m called to invite people into the great circle dance with our Creator, because the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit are dancing, I am able to dance with them. Since they are in relationship, I can be in relationship with them and others. It boils down to that. It really is that simple. My philosophy of ministry hangs on that fact, so I ask you, how does that make me unfit to serve?
I’m called to speak out against injustice by being relational. Whether or not I come out online will be up to me. It won’t be for the shock value, or like “Who shot J.R.?!”. It’ll be for me. The Church of the Nazarene will continue without me. I will be letting my friends and family know about my blog. They know me best. They know if I am capable of being in relationship with God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit or not.
Compatible or incompatible
I’ve been challenging myself to see this issue from the other side. To step into the minds of the opposition to understand why loving people can be so down right cruel on just this issue. I’ve discovered a halfway-developed answer. It’s all about view points. Gays don’t fit into the opposition’s paradigm. The idea of a civilized, Christian gay or lesbian that is monogamous isn’t compatible with the Modernist view of Christianity. The opposition presents gays and lesbians as un-human creatures, with the emotional range of lust, only seeking to get their next lay. Well when you put it like that, of course they think gays can’t be Christians. They define me as someone who has “listened to the world” for too long and “struggled” to figure out which way to go and is selfishly choosing the world instead of the church; someone who is incapable of relationships is absolutely a sinner: You see that same definition/terminology pop up everywhere, from Pastoral Perspectives (I & II), to the Manual (P 37 & 437.7), Church of the Nazarene, Southern Baptist, NOM, and Prop 8; they all define it like that. When someone who is so pre-defined, it is hard to change your definition, even when presented with actual-factual Christian who happen to lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender. The powers that be have pre-determined that because all gays, lesbians and bisexual people are the same, they all must be incapable of having relationships, and therefore not able to have relationship with Christ.
But here’s the deal, even if there definition was true 100% across the board, all humans are capable of relationship with God and others because God is relational. It is when we break the relationship with the Father that sin occurs. After all that is what caused the Fall. Sin is broken relationships. That’s all very logical.
The good news is no one, even the worst sinner in the world is incapable of being in relationship, we all have that ability built-in to us, because we were all made by the Creator! And because the Creator, whose very nature is relational, made us we are thus capable of being in relationship with God, and with one another. So no one gets left out of the circle dance. The only way not to dance, is to purposely choose not to participate. We all get to dance because we were made to dance by someone who is dancing. So it begs the questions, if LGBT people are so incompatible with the Church, why are we trying so hard to belong to it?
There is a lot of pain and suffering in the world. I’m called to ease that. My heart breaks for those in the darkness. My heart breaks when I hear people tell me why they left the Church, or why they hate the Church, or why they hate Christians. I’m idealistic. I know the Church is far from perfect because we are far from perfect, but let us never stop making ourselves better, and reaching for that goal.